Author: cidchun

Don’t you just love serendipity? When the connections with all the dots in your life become apparent.  That moment of epiphany?

19.12 We are in the presence of continual change, and we know that this change is but the evolution of the Universal Mind, the grand process whereby all things are continually being created anew, and we come to know that matter is but a form which Mind takes and is therefore simply a condition.  Matter has no principle, Mind is the only principle.

19.8  …Evil is found to be simply a negative condition, the absence of Good..

Good is the principle, evil is just the absence of Good.

Health is the principle, disease is the absence of Health

Truth is the principle, falsehood is the absence of Truth

Abundance is the principle, poverty is the absence of Abundance

Light is the principle, darkness is the absence of Light

All these concepts feel and ring true as I read them in my studies, but understanding them conceptually is so much easier that living them through the the times when disease, financial stressors, lies and falsehoods, through what feels like complete and utter darkness.

In my life there have been several times when I am moving forward on my personal goals and dreams and all hell broke loose. People I loved needed my help.  Unexpected catastrophies caused financial setbacks.  Cancer struck. Fucked up shit happened.

So I would put my personal goals and personal transformation on the back burner and deal with the shit.  I persevered and made it through some really challenging times. In many ways I am proud of myself for that perseverance.  For still being here and for helping others when they asked for my help.

So at a time in my life where I had a moment, I put me first again. I signed on for the MKE class.  I set goals for me and for my business.

And shit happened.  What could go wrong was going wrong.  Fires popped up that needed to be put out.  Last week was the climax of the madness; there was one day where some live conflicts, a couple texts, and a couple emails (all pointing to things that had blown up) poked my anxiety triggers like nobody’s business.

Meanwhile, I am getting up at 3 am instead of 4 am so I can do my things before job things and family things and people need my help things. I am determined to keep my promises I made to myself.

On my 45 minute commute to and from my day job, one of the things I do is listen to books on Audible.  Friday, I was listening to Jen Sincero’s “You are a Badass.”  Jen is describing what happens when we make that decision to keep going. She implores us to not stop what we are doing for our goals, for our transformation.  She describes how a whole lot of shit might happen, and how we might misinterpret this crapola carnival and let it veer us off our course.  She describes a client she had who quit his corporate job to start his own business.  He experienced two flat tires and a whole mess of stuff I can’t name right now.  But what impressed me was she said when the all this happens to us when we make a decision to change ourselves and our lives and live our heart’s purpose, it is a SIGN THAT OUR OLD BLUEPRINT IS TRYING ITS ABSOLUTE BEST TO STOP US.

Yes.  She said old blueprint (exactly what we are learning in our MKE course – old blueprint), our old blueprint was fighting for what it knew to stay in place.

All that shit raining down on my parade last week was not the Universe testing me.  It was my old blueprint trying to keep the cement over my Golden Buddha.

Which means the cement is cracking.  My old blueprint put up quite a fight last week, which tells me the cracks are widening and crumbling and falling….

I was SO HAPPY.  I was able to see all the stuff objectively and I did not feel worn down by it.  I felt elated that I am on my way back, I am getting really close, to who I came here to be. Folks, the old blueprint is taking its death rattle breaths.

I have heard often the phrase “where your attention goes energy flows.”  The overlapping, intersecting, complex and compounding effects of the activities in the Master Key Experience has really brought this concept home.  Knowing something and experiencing it are two very different things. My old blueprint, the cement covering my personal Golden Buddha, was many layers and deeply embedded.  Cracking through it has been hard work.  It is a work in progress.

Every day there are challenges.  Difficulties in life don’t go away.  The fact that I am really good at overcoming and pushing through hard, challenging times only reinforced the ways of my old blueprint.  I am learning that I do not need to think about my problems, my family’s problems, possible problems.. 24/7 in order to overcome those problems.  I am excited to completely change how I think.

I am learning to trust myself and release my worries. I am learning, I am giving myself permission, I am DEMANDING of myself to focus my attention on what I choose.  I choose my DMP.  I choose me.  The me I came here to be.

“…being by paying attention; before long you will have aroused interest; this interest will attract more attention; and this attention will produce more interest, and so on.  This practice will enable you to cultivate the power of attention.” 18.32

I have heard of and had intention to read Joseph Campbell for many years. So, very excited to supplement the MKE class with the wisdom of Joseph Campbell and the Hero’s Journey.

I put Joseph Campbell and the Power of Myth with Bill Moyers on my Audible and have been listening to it on my work commute.  Combined with the webinar last Sunday, which walked us through the four stages of death in relation to our old self, our old habits, our old blueprint- all of this really helped me see my own transformation from an outside perspective.  In some areas, I still have a little denial going on.  Others, some anger.  More often these last weeks I think I have been in the stage of grief.  I didn’t realize why I was sad until the webinar.  The last stage, acceptance, is shining through and helping with the moments of grief. However, overall, I have been happier than I can remember.  Same shit happens, life has its challenges, but I am lighter and happier than ever.

“Life has no meaning.  Each of us have meaning and we bring it to life. It is a waste to be asking the question when you are the answer.” Joseph Campbell

For my Franklin makeover word this week I selected “taking initiative.”  What I found is that I am struggling with awareness of this added activity.  Compounded by the fact that I selected the qualities that I most want to develop (and felt were most needed) first.  I think I may have been better served by warming up on the attributes that I see more easily. Kindness week was a blast and I was seeing kindness, being kindness all over the week.  But my three first self selected attributes (imagination, taking initiative, and decisiveness), the awareness goes to the back burner of my brain once I get to my day job.  Then, at home, I realize the exercise and reverse look at the day with the lens of the attribute.  I see where it fits, but it feels manipulated.  I’ve noticed each new added activity takes me a week or more to warm up to and to have it become habit.

Where I am expanding is the sit.

17.16  In realizing great thoughts, in experiencing great emotions that correspond with great thoughts, the mind is in a state where it appreciates the value of higher things.

At the beginning of the course the sit, and feeling emotions purposefully, were challenges for me.  15 minutes seemed like 45. Now, 15 minutes gets swallowed up in a blink.

I will find a way for the Franklin Makeover to become a habit, and I know I can and will because of all the great habits I have formed since I began the MKE.

We have an added activity in the course.  The Franklin Makeover.  In order to become more aware of the positive expressions of our humanity, we are selecting one expression per week.  Being open to hyper awareness of that expression around us in others, as well as in ourselves.  The first week I selected “imagination” as that is a quality I want to develop more of in myself.  This second week, everyone in the course was assigned “kindness.”

Recognize.  Relate.  Assimilate.  Apply.  R2A2.

We started the exercise on a Monday, and for me, I have always enjoyed random acts of kindness, and being kind in the face of chaos.  On Monday and Tuesday one of the ways I chose to demonstrate kindness was in my classroom.  By day, I am a 9th grade English teacher, and 157 14-15 year olds come through my room each day.  NMWH.  My motto.  No Matter What Happens.  Be kind.  The students and their moods are all over the place, and I breathe through it all.  I do my best to not let their anxieties and mood swings affect my own.  So I smile and think kind thoughts and look them in the eye when they are talking to me, NMWH.  I ramped this up on kindness week and was feeling full of love and kindness for them all.

Driving home (45 minute commute) on Tuesday January 8th I was already in a great mood.  When I got home, it took me at least 5 minutes to realize something was different.  OMG.  Christmas was down.  My 29 year old newlywed daughter had come over to hang with the family Bordercollie and let him out, and turned that into an all day affair of taking down Christmas, packing it up, organizing it into the garage, and cleaning the house.  SUCH A HUGE AND KIND GIFT TO HER MAMA.

We also have a chore card every week, building our muscles of keeping our promises to ourselves.  On Sunday, January 6th, I had written on my chore card, “Take down Christmas by 1/13.”  I always keep my promises, Cid Chun.

This was my first time manifesting in this way, my chore card was done early due to a random act of kindness by my daughter.

Totally cool.