But the thought must be clear cut, steady, fixed, definite, unchangeable; you cannot take one step forward and two steps backward; neither can you spend twenty or thirty years of your life building up negative conditions as the result of negative thoughts, and then expect to see them all melt away as the result of fifteen or twenty minutes of right thinking. Haanel 14.26
I’d been beating myself up a little bit about my failures. Failure to go 7 days on the mental diet (no negative/worry/fear/judging/criticizing thought for longer than 5 seconds), failure of missed readings, failure to be on time with new assignments and blog posts. But the holidays came with time off from my educator’s job, time FOR myself and my personal development and growth. And we had a bye week on the Sunday webinar. I made a promise to myself to not only catch up with MKE, but to do so with ENTHUSIASM, with passion and purpose. To find ways of owning each piece and falling in love again with the process and the effects. Master Key 14.26 was pivotal in my not only pushing through, but in forgiving myself; in moving past my “failures” and in celebrating my wins. In realizing it is a process and I am smack dab in the middle of it all.
I made a list and knew I would accomplish everything. I always keep my promises.
I revised my DMP; and found that mixing it up, with combos of DMP, movie version, one sentence version, and my press release helped me with enthusiasm and positive anticipation.
I look forward to the sit. It is not the most difficult part anymore, it is my favorite part.
Week 14 we had a task to watch a movie from a list. I watched October Sky. Homer Hickam persists with passion on learning how to build a rocket. He doesn’t quit despite many setbacks and the lack of belief (ridicule and rejection) of family and community. He is so inspired by Spunick in October 1957 (a month before I was born – seems somewhat serendipitous), that he pursues his dream and overcomes what he is told is his destiny – to be a coal miner.
I will persist. I will win.