Well, I am finding my way. Sometimes the biggest discoveries are so common sense that it makes me wonder WTF was I thinking in the first place. The biggest challenge for me the first week was the evening reading. I not only took the directions of “before retiring” to literally mean get ready for bed and read in bed, that is what I was attempting. Then, one night this week I decided to give it a go in the living room. Standing up. With the paperwork on the back of the couch like a pulpit and me reading everything with full enthusiasm, including body language. I rocked it. The evening read went from sleepy time guilt ridden barely make it to the finish line, to personal sermon like delivery. Yay me 😉 I am still working on the mid day read. Getting it done. I only have a half hour lunch as a high school teacher. And this last week was end of quarter, so I not only didn’t eat lunch nor do a midday reading, I was with students coming in at lunch for tutoring. But, I do have complete faith that I will figure it out.
My favorite part this week was the PPN exercise. Personal Pivotal Need. There are seven. I thought for sure I knew what mine were, but I had three not two, and so was having a hard time selecting between Legacy, Autonomy, and Liberty; as these three have eluded me in my life thus far, AND these three are what I am working towards and had been working towards when I came upon the MKMMA. However, I wondered if Helping Others and True Health might be my two PPN’s, as these are areas I have been doing work with for decades and have gotten quite good at. Especially helping others. As a wife, mom, and public school teacher I can help others like a kangaroo with a pouch big enough for an infinity of little joeys. In the end, what I found intriguing, was when I sat with the seven PPN’s, and did some meditating on them, I realized that my two are Spiritual Growth and Recognition for Creative Expression. Interestingly, these are the two I was working on developing in my 20’s, before marriage, children, and teaching. So I am circling back. It really helped that Mark explained that by picking two we are not eliminating the other five. Because I do desire Legacy, Autonomy, and Liberty; but it seems these will come by way of the PPN’s I decided on. It will be interesting to see how this all rolls out.